The diary of wobbly cat Merida. Follow her life as a neurological wobbly cat from trauma in her own words.

Start of summer 2019 update

takin some selfies

Its been a long long time! I get my diaree back though now mom said. Booster wants one of his own too but I told him he cant cuz its just a Merida thing. Heehee!

I have been going outside now and playing when its not too hot, and I saw my vet the other day and she said I am doing so good. They even taked my blood from me! They can be vampries sometimes. I learned all about vampires when mommy and me had all of our long down time. We watched vampire shows and movies and she told me all about them, I just never knew my vet was a vampire!!! i remember she stoled my blood a few times before! So this time fur my blood taking I wasn’t having it! I fighted, but they won this time…

Oh and mom says I cannot snap cat. But I told her that everyone has the snap cat and I should too! We should bug her about this and maybe then I can one day have the snap cat app too! (oops mom says its snap chat. I like snap cat better!)

Now its time fur a afternoon catnap, but I wanted to write a diaree to get started on working on my spelling and stuff again. It has just been so long!

Been a while

Things have been good but not so good here. Moms is having lots of healing crisis go on. (its where you feel like you have a bad flu, but you dont) She is healing up though! We had a death in the family, and our furnace broke where we rent too. So there has been lots going on so I have not been on so much.

I saw my vet a few times since we been on too, and she says I am doing really good. I practice my standing lots at home, a bit of walking practice too. Not in my walker, i still hate that thing. I still do my loopy too. My flexors are getting a bit better too, so I can look up sometimes now. Massages are helping them go away a little bit. If you remember we had them all gone until Sept when I met a new person and backtracked on all the good stuff I was doing. I am full of poop again, so mom and Dr Marshall are working on fixing it for me again. You arent missing anything lately cuz our winters are so cold and with lots of pressure making my ears do weird stuff, so most days I am too dizzy from my ear fluid stuffs to do too much.

Another year

I know mom said that Mew Years is still a bit away, but I have been so busy and not on much to do my diary and so I wanted to see where I have come this year. I know how it has been real up and down and that is from post concussion we are pretty sure. If I get over stimulated or over tired then I don’t heal and go backwards.

This year we had too much stress and loud sounds at the condo where we lived before. Mom had asked the lady doing renovations if we could get some notice so we could plan fur a hotel or a safe place for us kids and the lady did not listen. So we were all so stressed out and all got sick from it. I was doing real good and then not so good cuz of the renovations with all the loud noises and it was scary cuz we all had no safe place to hide. So mom and dad tried and tried to move us away from it. It took too long and Knigget got too sick from the stress. He moved with us, but only lived a month after. We miss him lots here.

So this year I could not do anything until after we moved. We are not connected to anyone now, its still not our house but, we can do a bit more on our own time when we need too. Like get really nice quit naps and not get woken up and startled most times. So I started healing again and I am doing so good now! So here is what I can do by myself now:

  • get to a sit position and start eating my wet food by myself
  • eat my entire dishes of food by myself almost all the time
  • walk three steps by myself without leaning or help
  • stand for 7 minutes by myself leaning against something
  • stand for almost a full minute by myself not leaning against something
  • pounce and land on my feet and stay sitting
  • execute a full cat stretch

Medical stuffs of how I am doing:

  • I have full muscles in my hips and legs that a normal kitty would have
  • my post concussion seems almost all gone, I can focus now
  • my flexors we gone until I met a new person and she went a bit overboard on the luvs
  • better balance
  • less sway and wobbles and eye jitters
  • my muscles are not too tight as much and my bones stay in place
  • I can walk using my paws properly now, i used to criss cross my fronts and keep my back together
  • i can support my whole body weight with my legs, 9.2 lbs
  • way less inflammation now
  • my poops are getting better (my muscles and nerves used to cause me probs with it moving) I had so many enemas and nothing would fix the problem but mom and Dr.Marshall got it all figured out fur me
  • less ear fluid cuz mom and Dr.Marshall figured it all out and how to fix it (lymphatic stuff)


Medically I am still dizzy and healing. That is from my neck, ear muscles, and nerves in there causing fake messages and telling lies to my brain. Time and treatment will get that sorted out though. Its called sternomastoid syndrome.


Regular update!

This week has been full of interesting stuff. I got to see my vet and she fixed me up more after the crazy stuff that happened to me just from getting pets from a new person. She figured out my ear fluid too! My lymph system is backed up from my muscles. So its nothing serious or dangerous. Purr-ah!
Mom gived me a special place on the couch top i can see out our big window and watch BIRDIES! I can sit there like a big girl with mom beside me all by myself fur a really long time. Mom was amewsed.
We did loopy and massage today. Mom even did the touches to drain my lymph stuff. It makes me a bit dizzy cuz the fluid is gone and then my brain goes AHHHH CANT FIND CENTER!! So i get dizzy fur a bit and my brain gets more normal thinking. Its hard to explain fur me. Mom explains it better. “Once the fluid has drained, her brain recieves the message that she is not being weighed down or pulled to one side and it has to try and realign her balance of what it thinks normal is. Part of her issue is that her brain to balance messages are being miscommunicated from the nerves and muscles”
Yeah what mom said. MOL!! I just know i feel better after a bit and mom took me walking fur as much as she could and she says it was REALLY REALLY good walking! Straight and not much sways.
I see a mousey staring at me. I should go beat him up. It feels like playtime!

not feeling so goods

I have not been feeling so good since tuesday afternoon. So Alastar has been looking after me. I puked 3 times this morning. I am so super dizzy my body is moving an now I got the constipations again too. Mom is trying hard. I see my vet next week and mom is gonna call her tomorrow too when she is back in the office. (She was gone fur a week)
Not much to write right now. I am gonna go have more naps.

Vets and more

I saw my vet the other day. Dr. Marshall is so pawesome! She fixed me all up real good. Her and mommy talked about a MRI thingy to do on me so we can maybe see why I have ear fluid going on, and why it gets bigger and smaller when I move and stuffs. So they are gonna talk more about it. But see the more water I drink then the more ear fluids I get behind my ears. The more ear fluids I have then the more dizzy and icky I feel. SO mom and Dr.Marshall wanna get to the bottom of it if they can decide ill be ok doing it. I think ill be ok to do it.

Mom wants to work on my calendar but she is still having problems so we have to wait she says. I am excited because she takes such good pics of me and I dont get to see them so when we do my calendar and I help I get to see all of them! I choosed some last time fur my last calendar. I wanna do it but we have to wait until mom is not so dizzy and in pains first. Hope that is soon cuz I miss helping mom in the house and stuff.

I am practising my walking lots and getting play time in by myself. Sometimes i like to play by myself anyways. And you all helped me to get my smile back after that person posted the comment about me. So thank yous all fur that! Back to moving on and furgetting about what bad things people can say about me. I am a cool cat and we all know it! MOL

People made me cry

Today mom let me go on while she rested. I saw someone shared my video. I was happy to see a share, cuz I dont get many shares. But then i saw it and read it and i cried. Just like people i dont like when people make fun of me or say bad things about me. So i cried.
Mom came to me and gived me her fluffy kitty blankey and put me in it. She hugged and kissed me and told me that not everybody is gonna like me or her for saving me. She said sometimes people just dont get it and dont want too and thats why i she said i could share with everyone what I do and how i do it. So that maybe some people who didnt know cats like me could understand i am just as cool as all the other cats out there. Mom told me that its ok fur peoples to have different ideas and the peoples who say bad things are just ignorant. She also said i am a very cool cat and just to keep being myselfs. Then she gived me a kiss on the nose and a head rub and massage.
Moms always make everything better! ❤️
Thank yous to you all fur following me and helping me stay strong while i keep working at getting better. Xoxo

A good week

cant believe its been a whole week already! wow!
First i wanna send kisses and birthday wishes to someone very important, she knows who she is. xox

Me and Star seed my vet on Monday. Stars kidneys and bladder got better but her calcium has not changed, but it can be 6 months fur that to happen. I am doing super good too. My muscles were so jelloy only my left hip was bugging me. Dr. Marshall said thats so good. The stuff mom is giving me again is working good with assisiloop and so i been practicing my walking too. I dont even need mom almost now, i can do everything alone again 100%.

You probably saw me eating live a couple times. I didnt even know mom had the camera on until i was half done! She can be silly but she said everyone loves me and liked watching so we should do it more. I have to say if you seed my lunch time live video, i kind of like watching myself too!! MOL

I been watching cartoons lots too while mom cleans or cooks. But its been a pretty boring week with rain and stuffs.



#BlackCatAppreciationDay yaay!!

Today was black cats appreciation! We had a good talk on my page about why peoples love their black kitty cats and there was pics of some real purdy black kitty cats!! My OH MY! I am so jealous and i wanna look like some of them! Like Rosie… She has the most longest and pretty furs! And Serpepe has these real long nice whiskers! Bryn is spoiled and chats lots. Wow! So many wonderful kittys that are lucky black cats to have homes. ❤️
This week mom tried giving me some of my old herbs and its helping alot! My ear fluid goes away fur a while when I get it and my muscles all turned to goo. Mom calls it jello body? I have been slowly practicing my walking by doing my babysteps like mom tells me. And dad gives me lots of bellyrubs while he isn’t in school. Its pawesome! I get bellyrubs like every day!
Mom is getting better at wheres Merida so i had to find new places to hide, but not hide real good cuz then mom cant find me. Hehe. She still isnt the bestest at finding me in the new place.
We picked out some calendar pics too when mom had some time. Mom says maybe we can start it now that her article for The Daily Mews is done. Its gonna be published at the end of the month. Moms super excited (wow thats a tricky one to spell!) i need to remind mom i need more spelling practice.
Had a tiring day tweeting and facebooking. So its evening nap time! Zzzz.

Vets and so much more

I got to see my vet this week and she is reeeeeeeeaaaaaal happy about how i am doing. She says i am making new muscles in my hips to control my walking and being steady. So now i dont sway my hips as bad! its still slow going, but mom has told me lots that healing hurts and sometimes it can be very slow until it you find the problems and can fix them. It took a long time to find the problem fur me, but that is ok cuz we are healing it. Mom told me too that nerves get boo boos sometimes and they take a long time to heal and its worse when its inflamed or you have tight muscles pushing on them. I dont get it, but mom knows what she is talkin about MOL. Her and Dr.Marshall talk all the time about that stuffs and me and dad are sooooo lost!

Between moms migraines we do loopy and she gives me such good massages too. They make me feel soooooo good. I need a nap after but i wake up feeling so good! We do one or two loops a day but because my boo boos are old we dont see any big surprises cuz loopy healed those ones already, but it does work to make my muscles all nice like jelly and then i dont have hot spots either. Thats the slow healing parts again. But its still working and i have to heal back to where i was doing good before all the reno noises made me bad again. Thats what happens with concussions, you need lots of quiet and dark naps. Its VERY important! I still have ear fluid and head pressure which mom tries to help with and sometimes it works and sometimes it doesnt.

Me and mom picked out some pics fur my new calendar too. But she says she has other important stuff to do first before we can work on that more. If she would give me her password i bet i could do it by myself MOL!!

Star is not doing good again cuz she has allergies to her new foods. It is the only foods she can eat with her problems. Mom and Dr.Marshall are working hard to try and figure stuffs out fur her. OH! gotta go! moms calling me cuz its food time!!

Mid week blues

It has been so rainy here and cloudy. We had so much thunder, super scary!!

Moms been having ouchies from healing, so have I. Mom says healing hurts but its good fur us.

I loved all the comments on my diary, and I am gonna reply. Mom just wasnt feeling so good to help me turn the computer on.

I gots a new dish. Its real soft so I dont bonk my head off it if I get wobbly while I am eating. I really like it.

I have not been doing so much. I went fur a few tours of the house. I also hid so well mom couldnt find me fur a long time. I was hiding under the printer desk in the way back MOL. I could feel mom was worried so I mewed fur her so she could find me. She is not very good at find Merida in the new place.

Today I scratched my ear ALL BY MYSELF!!! It felt sooooooo good! Mom will do it fur me all the time because I cannot do it on my own. I always miss or lose my balance, but i keep trying. Today i actually did it all by myself with no help. Mom gived me a high paw. I think its all the massages mom gives me and loopy too. Loopy really helps me feel so good. I see Dr.Marshall next week too. I wonder how she will say I am doing? I know my ears are still full sometimes, but nobody knows how to fix that fur me or mom. In time I think mom will figure it out, she is amazing!

Hope next week is better. This rain and healing has made me so tired and bored.

I got my diary back!

So much has happened since I last did a diary. Mom gave me spellcheck and helped me learn more fur typing now so you all can read it better now she says. We practiced lots! Hope I am better now, meow.

We had lots happen! We moved into a bigger place now and I have a yard with grass. I get to dig in the dirt and play with apples that fall from the trees. It makes it nice and shady fur me, but its too hot to go out much sometimes fur black cats like me. Walking on the grass can be fun too!

I am 4 now, and I had my gotcha day too!

4 yrs ago vs today

We lost our brother Knigget. We miss him lots and lots. Sometimes we all still cry because we was here so very long with us. I miss him teasing me to pounce him and sharing catnip banana. Its sad but his heart got hurt from the renos at the place we lived before cuz it went on so long. He did good here at the new place, but his heart was still so hurt that any little thing was too much fur him and it finally gave up one morning. I never got to kiss him goodbye…

BUT onto good stuffs! Daddy is doing school and he passed his first course. YAAAY DADDY!! Mom and dad used their points card to ‘pay it forward’ and bought food for a single mom and her little girls. The girls were happy to have milk and gived mom and dad hugs. I give hugs for milk too! Just sayin’ mom. Mommy and me are both healing and doing our therapy. Now that life is quiet and not chaos its nice to get what we need when our body needs it. I can get nice quiet dark sleeps in the afternoon if I want now. Those sleeps are the bestest. I wake up ready to walk and roll! MOL

I started my game again too, find Merida. So far mommy sucks at it and dad has always sucked at it. So i got lonely one day and had to cry out fur mom to find me cuz she had NO clue. I am THAT good at it. So maybe I should not hide so well so mom can find me. Make it easy for her and stuff?

My vet says I am doing real good. My neck is nice and loose, my standing is very good and my walking i am using new muscles i never used before so I have to give them strength and keep working at it to make it so they can hold me when I walk. Mom helps me lots by bending over and walking me and we stand and sniff things on the way as I walk. My ear fluid is still a mystery to mom and the vet. Mom turns me on my back and it disappears, i am getting used to it, but it doesn’t last so long sometimes. Thats why they call me the neurological enigma! (I had to get mom to spell that fur me MOL)

Nurse Merida

Mom catched dads cold an so she has been really REALLY sick!! Its so bad fur her cuz she already has dizzy an other probs still so I have to take care of her.

I been a good girl an playin by myself, an cuddlin and purring fur her to help heal her. I think its working cuz she says she feels a bit better today. She even let me go outside today in my playpen, made me a box house an she told me she is purroud of me fur being such a good girl an a good helper while she is sick. Hope she is better soon so we can play an walk again.

Angels among us

I got these grate toys today, an as I was playin with my cool spring things I heard what sounded like mommy cryin! I listened again, an I was right. Mommy was cryin 🙁 So I said from behind the couch “mommy! Are you ok???? Mommy??” she stopped fur a second an came around the couch to come see what i needed, but i said “no mommy i dont need anything, whats wrong mommy?” I rubbed my face against her ankle an purred. She sat down on the floor with me an put me on her lap an hugged an kissed me. I rubbed her face an tapped it and then she said this to me:
“Merida, you remember when you hurt yourself and you struggled SO hard all the time and you JUST made it by everyday? That is how mom and dad have been feeling for years now after the car accident, especially after losing our baby, with one tragedy after another and we struggle every day really hard and we JUST make it by. It makes you tired all the time doesn’t it sweetie?” I purred an licked her tears. I grabbed her arm and started giving her more kisses than anyone gets in years!!! Then when I was kissin her, she said:
“Remember when mommy came and scooped you up out of the very hot grass Merida? You were really scared and didn’t know what was going to happen, did you? But I didn’t give you a choice and I took you home with me. Everyone called me your angel, and I know you feel that mommy is your angel, don’t you sweetie? Well mommy and daddy just got their own angel and its a scary feeling and it makes you cry because you are so happy that words can’t say it, so you cry and the tears are better than words. I know you get it Merida.” she scratched my whiskers and I couldn’t purr loud enough to say how happy I was then an I GOT IT! That was what mom was feeling!!

Mom went on to esplain to me that an angel had paid ALL of our bills that piled up from dads injury, an stopped the nasty regular phone calls fur monies. It was lots of monies! She said that angels were very very rare, but they are out there an she vowed to pay this forward somehow. She isn’t sure how yet because she always does everything she can to help anyone, an anything furry too MOL. So I told her she will figure it out, I believe in her that she will find a way. She rubbed my nose, an I curled up in her lap for a nap… with her sitting on the floor. MOL!


Angels walk among us. They may not have wings, and may not fly. But they slowly are changing our world for the greater good. Dedicated to all the angels out there who do things to help or make society a better place for all.

A grate vet date!

I said I would put in my diarre how my vet date went. It went so good!! Mom put me down as we checked in an I went to my exam room (you can see how i do that here an i waited fur Dr.Marshall to come see me. She said Hi and I comed and purred up on her an rubbed my face bein all cute. She fixed my neck, back an hips fur me an she even walked me around too like mommy does!! She was holding me an i walked her all around the room MoL!

Jen was really happy. Like REALLY REALLY happy! She says i am doin the best she has ever seen me do! My eye jitters are almost gone 100%, i do spready toes with my feets now (ya even my back feets!), almost all the fluid behind my eers is gone, my colon feels like its starting to heal up a a bit, my coat is silky shiny smooooooth, an i am what they call at the office “full of P&V”. Full of piss an viniger, i did tell them I didn have to pee tho. I have no clue.
Mom put me down to pay after an i tan away without a sound! Jodi the tech tried to find me an it took her a bit. She was amazed cuz i made no sound on the hardwood doin flip flops to go explore after treatment, thats cuz i actually walked most of it. She giggled cuz im still a stealthy ninja cat, even tho i am wobbly!
Don’t furget we have bracelets too fur sale! PayPal $8USD per bracelet via [email protected] an we are still accepting any donations fur my medical treatment fund and also fur living expenses with mom an dad BOTH being seriously hurt an unable to work. Hoping dad heals soon!!!